~Metatetron

Day Seven:

There is really no way to describe the effects of not smoking after nearly 35 years.

I haven't maimed anyone and don't think I have irreparably damaged any friendships - I will find out when things normalize.

My perception is off. It's perhaps the single most un-thought of, and definitely one of the weirdest effects - who knew that quitting a drug would offer an altered state of consciousness?

Its not pleasant, but the incipient wheeze has disappeared from my resting breathing, and I no longer cough from 430AM until 700AM each morning.

My and I are both quitting, and so far I think we are largely taking out the irritability, short tempers, shorter fuses, incandescent volatility, adamant mood shifts, implacable outrage, and paranoid aggressiveness on each other - instead of on those around us.

yeah - believe it or not she and I are surviving this, My Neecy says quitting together will make us a stronger couple. I mentally added 'if I don't make a lampshade out of her frelling hide first....

I realized something a day or so ago....

It's not about me not smoking, or quitting, I am not trying to quit. I have quit. I am not 'stopping just for today' or 'doing my best' or 'having one more try at it'

- I am not smoking again. The rest is just living with the ill effects.

Anyone care to guess just how much of an annoying militant anti-smoker I am gonna be, just for the heck of it? It's covered in Chapter 9 "Annoying People With Things They Already Know" in the Curmudgeon Home Study Course.

In the meantime - I am going to go try to figure out a way to be around other humans without being a dick.

take care.

John

P.S. - yeah this one was all about me, isn't that what I usually do anyway here?

*Metatetron

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Just for today
1) Do not be irate
2) Do not be worried
3) Be grateful
4) Work hard (on yourself)
5) Be kind to others.


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